Life and Everything Else AFTER the Army

2009-12-10T21:14:00.000-05:00

Helen and I went to an indian resturant for lunch! It was great!

Mike is talking about being a Mercenary or the military again...I don't know 100% how I feel about that...

What a day!

2009-12-10T19:19:00.002-05:00

So, I was running late this morning and I almost didn't make coffee this morning for Mike. We got to school in good time but as soon as I saw the DS in Kai's bed I knew that it was going to be a bad day. He only got 4 points today. Lets go back a bit. Kai was not doing to hot at school and after a ton of tests and money and things he was diagnosed ADHD. The doctor sucked and he is not on any meds right now but we are getting him TONS of sleep and he had almost 2 weeks of PERFECT behavior. He gets 3 sets of points each day about his behavior and the max he can get each set is 5 points for a total of 15 points. So that is that, he had a total of 4 points. He didn't sleep well and for the most part if he gets sleep he days MUCH better.

Helen is in the middle of the terrible twos in ways that I can't believe. She is screaming, yelling, not eating, running, not napping and driving me insane saying "No!" all day. Between being sick and being busy we have not been to Gymboree in weeks and I KNOW that she needs that and probably a few of the free gym times too so that she can get some of the energy out.

It is cold and snowing and winter here. I love the winter I think that it is nice to be indoors and warm and happy! I am not liking all the pent up energy that my kids are dealing with though.

I also really feel like I am doing things to make the house clean and livable and nice and all the people living here just mess it up and leave it cause Mom is going to clean it up...and I clean up after the dogs and I cook and I go grocery shopping. I am so tired! I want a break already. I don't want to cook or worry about brushing 3 sets of teeth or diapers or education or any of it. I really just wanna lay back and have a day where I do whatever I feel like even it is to sit alone in my house and do nothing but eat chocolate, LOL! No, I could go for strawberry ice cream.

I AM SO TIRED!!

2009-12-09T23:32:00.002-05:00

So...I keep saying that I am going to be better about blogging but MAN I AM SUCKING!!

SO, Kai is 7 and Helen is 2. Kai is in 2nd grade and doing AWESOME! He is reading at a great level and doing ok in math. He has a few good friends and some kids that he isn't to fond of. He is doing great! He is into his DS that my mom gave him and his SIMs Agent game on Wii.

Helen is thinking about potty training and watching her favorite shows. She loves The Fresh Beat Band, Yo Gabba Gabba, and anything else that is on Noggin/Nick Jr. She is getting a huge vocabulary and learning to express her feelings. SHe is into the yelling right now but we are working on it.

I am on my way to my mom's house on the 18th for the christmas sesonish thing. I can't wait. She rented me a mini van! I am going to eat all this great stuff and I just can't wait! I hear that it is really cold out there...that makes me sad.

I am mostly on twitter and facebook now a days. I love twitter! It is so great! I like playing cafe world and farmville on facebook.

Other then that I am really liking trying to be a bit more of a girly girl. Go Old Navy! lol

Anywho, I SWEAR ON MY GRAVE that I am going to do this more!

Good night blogger!

How do I not do this more?

2009-08-08T03:09:00.004-04:00

YAY FOR BETTER PICS! NEW HAIR!!

First of all, if you want more frequent updates add me on Facebook.

www.facebook.com/MrsAmandaJordan

Second, alot has happened lately and 9/10 of it has been for the best. Hubby and I are getting along great. I am having a better time in general. I am CURRENTLY in CA though because Hubby is at 2 week training and I wanted to see my mom. Let me say that I HATE flaying with 2 kids alone. That was HELL today and I won't even get into how we didn't get anything to eat after 8:30 this morning! We went until 9:00pm PA time with nothing more then the airline snacks!
Here is a pic from today though!

The kids are getting so big! The baby took a fall at Gymboree class on Thursday though and hurt her left elbow. I think it is going to need an X-Ray! The swelling is really concerning me! I don't think it is broken but I am afraid what has happened!

We have gone on a vacation since last post! We went to the NJ shore and spent the weekend! It was great but hubby got sick from it, no sun screen, and the baby and I got a cold. Here are some beach pics.

Also! I found Picasa! I am so happy! After the baby was born I had a BIG crash with my computer, my son threw a remote at it and broke it, and I lost ALL the pictures from the baby before about...7 months. I was CRUSHED! Well, I found them almost all on Picasa. I guess that I had uploaded them somewhere within Google at some point! I was thrilled! Check Picasa and search for me if you wanna see them or go through my facebook. Not gonna get into posting them all here!

Well, that is my update for now! Buh Bye!

OH BOY!

2009-04-28T10:27:00.002-04:00

WHAT A HORRIBLE PICTURE!!!

It has been HOT lately. It is going to be about 85-90 today and it was 93 yesterday! It was hailing last week! I can't believe this! I hope that it cools off a bit at some point. My Son is slacking in school, but it is kinda at that point for him when things are suppose to be slowing down and because we are starting home school it is not doing what he is use to. It will get better though, we have to go until the 12th of June with this program so we will get some done and then have a good summer. My daughter is getting so big way to fast! I can't believe that she is going to be 2 in October, she already acts so big! My husband has a job that is making him happy so things with he and I are getting on much better. I still hate dealing with my mother-in-law. She won't let me be a parent. She constantly cuddles and tries to make the kids feel better if they get in trouble and I am sick of it. My husband is getting another iPhone, he lost his in a cab almost a year ago. I am a little jealous, btu like I was telling my mom last night I don't think that I could give up my T-Mobile G1. I know that the phone will get better over time the same way that the iPhone did. I have to unlock the iPhone when it gets here so hubby can use it on T-Mobile, btu no big deal. I am a little jealous, but it will go away. I love my G1. I gotta get the better battery!
I gotta get to school work today! See you guys more later!

I Love The Onion!

2009-04-08T21:07:00.000-04:00

Sony Releases New Stupid Piece Of Shit That Doesn't Fucking Work

The New Addition

2009-04-08T20:52:00.003-04:00

I know that not many people are reading my blog right now, and if it goes up I will delete it, but I put a tracker on my blog at the VERY BOTTOM. It tracks me to the minute! It's cool! You can even see when I am out a speeding! YAY! Dickson Ave is my house, where it is the most of the time.

Have fun guys!!

Breakfast with the Bunny and a Birthday

2009-04-05T13:15:00.003-04:00

So, we went to Moses Taylor hospital, where my daughter was born, and had breakfast with the easter bunny! My daughter loves giant costum people! Everyone thought that she would be scared. Not the case at all!She was so happy and comfortable with the bunny! She chased the bunny when it was time to go and then cried when he left. Here are more pictures of the kids and that morning.
This last picture is all the under 15 cousins in the family. There are actually 2 more over 15 but under 18. SO many people! I get confused how I am realted to most of them most of the time.

After all this we went to a birthday party at a bowling ally for one of the cousins! It was great! I bowled a 100! I was happy! My son got his first strike and my daughter saw bowling ball return things. She loved to watch the bowling balls come back to us. All in all it was a great day. Hubby is off with the army reserves this weekend so it is just us this Sunday. We have done nothing but order pizza this morning. It's been great!

Sorry about the Technical Issues...

2009-04-05T13:12:00.001-04:00

On to my regularly scheduled blog...

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2009-04-05T13:01:00.000-04:00

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You will have to enhance it, but people are stupid!

2009-04-03T22:50:00.001-04:00

Created with PicSay on my T-Mobile G1

2 Birthdays Later

2009-03-19T13:00:00.000-04:00

So, I am now 24. My son is now 7 and I don't have to buy another birthday present for anyone that I give a hoot about until July! YAY! Everyone else gets cards and money.

Things have had some HUGE bumps along the way but for the most part it's been "ok"

I have been depressed and it's not gonna get much better any time soon. I hate being the only person who is responsible in this family. The kids can't be, at least not for anything major, but what bout my husband?! He has TBI, Tramatic Brain Injury, and he can't even remember to hang up a towel none the less deal wit the bills.

Our car went to shit in the brakes department and $640.70 later we got it back. I hate not having money but from what I hear it's everyone's problem right now.

I am stressed and depressed but I think I might actually be ok.

Defeat...

2009-03-06T16:26:00.000-05:00

I took out the dreadlocks. My son was embarrased by them and it was turning in to more work then straight hair so they came out. I am going to see how long I can grow my hair now.

My 2 year wedding anniversary was yesterday and it was great! Dinner and a Movie date and everything!

My mom will be coming to visit here in PA tonight!!

My birthday is tomorrow! I will be 24! YAY!!

I will get some pictures up later

Been a LONG time

2009-02-02T00:09:00.000-05:00

I have not posted in awhile, but I think that it is about time. My husband and I are still together. It is rough and it is going to be hard for awhile but I think that we are going to be OK. We are in marriage counseling and individual treatment, we are getting better. My son is having some problems in school and I am currently seeking out alternatives to public school. I have found a distance charter school that I really think may be a good option for him. Just gotta get hubby into the idea. My daughter has had her first ear infection, both at the same time actually, and has 15 teeth. She is 15 months old now. Walking, talking, dancing and having temper tantrums. I love my kids!

SO! On to the pictures!

We are not sure how this happened. It is a new camera that I got the hubby for Christmas. Nikon D60. It's cool!

Pictures of the kids. They are getting SO SO big!!

And now for the shocker!

I am making dreadlocks! I love them yay!!

That is all for now. I promise to post more!
I have a great Internet now!

Back in KS

2008-07-23T15:20:00.000-04:00

SO we are home and back in KS and to say that everything is ok is not the truth but it's "ok" relatively speaking. Hubby and I have had some real no holds bar fights since we have been home and it has been a real mess but we are both at an agreement that we can't do that shit anymore and that the kids really do need both of us in their lives. We are working on it and trying to get to know each other again and get back to where we were before this whole deployment from hell started.
I read some where that marriage counsalers advise that if your feeling a lose of love in a marriage to go through the actions and the feelings return. That showing the love and seeing how happy you can make your spouse can bring it all back and you can think on why your in this marriage in the first place, so that is what I am working on. I have a my fair share of issues in why we are here and so I am trying to work on those.
The kids are doing well. Our Son is learning to respect two parents again and to see his Dad as an authority figure and not just a buddy.
The baby is concerning me cause she is sleeping ALOT but there are no other symptoms so I am going to say she is ok. She has 9 teeth and is crawling everywhere now a days. She loves to explore and explores anything that she can get her little hands on.
I left my camera cord in PA so I can't upload any of the pictures that I have taken recently, but I will as soon as I get another cord. Sorry for the lack of pictures.
We have a ton of appointments on the military post on Friday starting at 0730 that I am NOT looking forward to, but gotta do what we gotta do.
More updates later...

I love taking pictures!!

2008-07-07T23:26:00.000-04:00

So, we are here in PA now visiting with my husband/ex-husband's family, I will explain that in a minute. So! Here are my pictures from PA so far. We are going to be here until around the 10th and then we have to go pack to KS for a little bit.

Ok, so on to the explanation. Right before I came to PA the husband person said that maybe he could have been wrong and that we could try again...
Not so bad but I am worried that it's not what he says that it is. I start to feel paranoid the other day and I looked in his phone and then made the mistake of telling someone and it made it to him. We had a pretty big "talk" today and now I don't know where it stands...He is sitting right here and I AM going to make him talk about it tonight no matter what. I don't care, it's not just about him not wanting to talk about it or not having answers. I am going barking mad trying to figure out what the hell is going on here. Here are some pictures of him and my son.

I know that I sound crazy even thinking that we could possibly make this work but I just don't know what to do I am so confused. I still love the guy and I know that the kids need a father and I don't know what to do. My mom is going to be so mad if I go through with this. I don't think that I will ever hear the end of it...what the hell am I supposed to do?!

No pictures of my daughter for now...sorry. I promise to get some. She is getting used to all the family here and it has been a rough 2 days is all I can say. It will get better. I am really not looking forward to what is going to be a 3 day drive with her back to KS. She hates to sit in the car for more then a few minutes at a time.

It's been awhile...

2008-07-01T00:47:00.000-04:00

Start you off with a cute picture!
I have had a CRAPPY couple of weeks. Nothing super good but I got my new tattoo done.

I told her that I wanted it to look like my 6 year old son had tried to fix a broken heart that had 3 pieces. The 3 pieces are my 2 scum bag ex's and one for my grandmother who never got to meet my son. The weird thing is, all 3 pieces look like an abstract heart on their own. I really like that cause in the end I still feel for the 2 scum bags and I will always love my grandmother and I know she isn't mad at me that we never made it there. It is healing really well. I will get a better picture after it heals and all that. SO! on to the other things!!

There was an oil spill at the beach across the street and I won't get into the details but I got in HUGE trouble for these pictures. Alameda jail is fun though, LMAO.

This last picture was the day after. People were protesting and it was awesome!!
Next there was our day in San Fransisco!! It was great! We got lost!! We went to a giant flee market first. So many people tying to rip you off all at once can be weird. It was fun though!
Next we drove over the bay bridge on the way into the city! It's pretty cool!!

Market street...
I don't know why I thought this was cool...
Wrong coast huh?
We didn't go there, but what a cool sign!
This was the SF Opera Hall! WOW!! I went online and looked at ticket, they are $75 each for the nose bleed seats! OUCH! Maybe one day.
Next is the SF Bridge! WOW!!

My son had a good time and thought it was awesome too!

Gotta love the Catholics! They give you some awesome churches to look at
There are a TON of Irish pubs in this state...I don't get it
OH YUMMY!!! I love Del Taco! Only place to get burritos and fries!! YUM!

Then there is the old historic Alameda Movie Theater! We saw Wall-E and I went back and saw Wanted. Wanted is good in the way that Harry Potter is good, you wish you could do that stuff but know that no one in the world can.

So, there are the good pictures. I am going to be living in CA for good after I get all the crap in KS worked out. We will be back in CA around the start of august so that Kai can start school and I can to hopefully. My ex is a heartless ass hole and I give up on him. I can't take this shit anymore. He can't be made happy ever by anyone. Hopeless piece of crap.

Then I leave you with more cute pictures. Helen and I playing with head phones. She thought it was cool!

I Love Music

2008-06-15T01:34:00.001-04:00

Two songs today that made me cry and say YEAH!

Never Again

I hope the ring you gave to her turns her finger green
I hope when your in bed with her, you think of me
I would never wish bad things, but I don't wish you well
Could you tell, by the flames that burned your words

I never read your letter
'Cos I knew what you'd say
Give me that Sunday school answer
Try and make it all OK

[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do
And don't say, you simply lost your way
She may believe you but I never will
Never again

If she really knows the truth, she deserves you
A trophy wife, oh how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes, and he's through with you
And he'll be through with you
You'll die together but alone

You wrote me in a letter
You couldn't say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
Repent yourself away

[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
Never again

[Bridge]
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you
Never

Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never

[Chorus]
Does it hurt to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks, to see my face everywhere
It was you, who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know
You knew exactly what you would do
And don't say, you simply lost your way
They may believe you but I never will
I never will
I never will

Never again

And then this one:

Behind These Hazel Eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

They are both Kelly Clarkson. I love her voice and I have heard both these songs MANY times, but they both choked me up today. Damn radio! I have both on my computer now, I wish I could get the Never again video on iTunes. It's on Youtube so....yeah.

Also, Since U Been Gone is awesome! I can't wait to get to that point! YAY!!

YAY!

2008-06-15T01:01:00.000-04:00

Oh I know you guys are going to kill me...I have no pictures again today and I have no excuse! The camera was charged we were out all day and I even saw a VERY attractive guy. I just didn't reach for it. BOO!
So we all went to breakfast this morning, mom didn't want to at first. We got to this hole in the wall awesome dinner and it kicked butt!! Best omellette ever! It had bacon and avacado! YUMMY!! Then he walked in...so gorgeous! He was spending the day with his grandpa and his buddy. He had 1" stretched ears and all kinds of tattoos. I just kinda kept glancing at him during breakfast. When we left I had to change a diaper in the car and after I got rid of the worst smelling diaper ever I asked him to bum a smoke. He asked about my tattoos I asked about his, I told him I wanted to stretch my ears again. He gave me his number and I gave him mine and then I saw him 15 min later at a stop light, lol. We were going to a new grocery store, we like to grocery shop, and he waved hi and did the "call me" sign. I haven't yet...I dn't know why I am so shy but he was SO nice!
The grocery store was awesome! My son got chocolate gelato and I got green tea ice cream. We got a bunch of weird sausage with different and new fillings and a HUGE pork tenderloin! I can't wait to cook it!! SO YUMMY!!
Then went to a local mall and I got some new converse sneakers, my old ones state my lost love for my ex in permenant marker. I got a new diaper bag and a few knick nacks. Got Helen a small stroller for when we go walking into Alameda during the week, I am to tall to push it very long.
We went to in and out and this is where I say OOPS! cause I have a picture!

YUMMY!!!
After all that Mom and my son went to a football game and the baby and I went out for the night, ok well for awhile. I got my nails and toes done and my eyebrows tamed! They were on the WILD side! The baby got pissed after awhile so i have to go back tomorrow when mom can keep an eye on her and get the paint redone. I am gonna get my hair done tomorrow too cause I am going to see the Spanish Stallions perform tomorrow and I am running to an art show, YAY! Anyhoo! After the fun at the salon we were going to go buy the stuff I needed for the tenderloin but I forgot my list at the apartment so we went to dinner. This place called Chinese Gourmet. It was GREAT! My face was still all red though from the eyebrow taming...people looked at me funny!
So it was a GOOD day! I will let you guys know when/if that guy calls.
I will have TONS of pics after tomorrow! YAY!

Blah

2008-06-14T00:13:00.000-04:00

Nothing exciting today. No pictures again. We sat at home until about 1 in the afternoon then went to McDonalds, blah, and then to the grocery and the book store. We got home and I did laundry and laid the baby for a nap and then I took a nap and then mom got home. We went to that Greek place again, which I think may be Turkish. Then to a place called Mervyn's out here that is going out of business. Got some nice bras anyway.
I found out that I can't watch what use to be my favorite show anymore. Army Wives on lifetime, it's to hard. It reminds me to much of what I thought I had with my ex-husband. I can't belive I don't hate him. He wants me to just go away, I know that I am not stupid but it's so hard just to stop loving someone the way that I loved him. I mean SHIT what do I do? He wants like nothing to do with me and if he really thinks I am the person he describes on the phone then I guess I get it. What the hell is my problem? I am such an idiot...

Thursday June 12th, the actual post!

2008-06-13T01:27:00.000-04:00

So, like I said in that last post I have no pictures for today. I am really sorry it was just a really bad day.
After everything yesterday I went drinking and that was big mistake number 1. I ended up on the phone with my now ex-husband mistake number 2 and for the huge mistake number 3, I believed the son of a bitch. Well, now here I am. I fought with him again today and after talking to some people and calming down and realizing that I am NOT a piece of garbage, how I feel after talking to him now a days, I made a promise to someone very important that I am not going to let this happen again.
After all that messed up crap I took the kids and we went out. We found this AWESOME greek place in the Alameda town center called ZEYTINI. It was SO SO SO good and the baby LOVED the spinach and the casserole thing I had. Then we had baklava...*DROOL* I could eat that more often!
We were going to go get Ice Cream when what should I find but a Children's Place store. OH BOY!! I got clothes for both the kids and a pair of sunglasses for my son. My son was a brat in the store though so we just walked home after the store and there was no ice cream.
Tons of sleeping followed all this, a trip to BK for mom and then she got called back into work, BOO!! Something about a finger case, OUCH!
Summery for today...load of shit(excuse the language) but when it was good, it was good. When it was bad, I wanted to die. I promise there will be a better blog tomorrow!

A Bad Day Made Good

2008-06-13T00:37:00.000-04:00

This is the view from the front of my mom's apartment complex. Sweet huh?

Ok, so this is again, a day late and a dollar short but at least I am posting right?! I have no pictures from the actual today cause my camera battery died but I will write something up as soon as I am done with this post. This is from Wednesday June 11th. I am guessing that when I woke up this morning I was just hormonal, but I was having a hard time. My mom called and asked me to bring some things to her work so the kids and I walked to the hospital where she works. Everyone there was so nice and so happy to see the kids. I felt so important! When we got there I told my mom that I was having a bad day and she took off from work. I told her that I wanted to be anywhere but home. So we went...

To Ikea!
What an awesome store!! It was HUGE!!

We even had lunch in the store at their cafateria. I was suprised how good it was! The Baby ate a whole kids thing of their macaroni and cheese. She loved the steamed veggies too!

After Ikea we headed home and did a lot of napping and sitting around and then cooked dinner. We had that steak and stuff from the previous post. I can't TELL you how good that was, just look! Yes, I had clams and steak from dinner! YUMMY!!

After the baby and I had a mini photo shoot playing with the portrait function in the dark, lol. Forgive her messy face but some of them look really good! I really love this camera!!

Yeah, thats right, we were watching Dr.Phil!

A Good Day

2008-06-11T01:40:00.000-04:00

When I woke up this morning I decided to give up a bad habit and no I don't mean the smokes. I meant the cell phone. I left it home all day. I was proud of my self. It let me have fun with the kids and not worry about the damn thing. Not been smoking a ton lately either, just not ready to give that up JUST yet. I will get there. The kids and I took it slow all day and stayed home most of it. We went out for lunch, but nothing exciting. Then we napped and played in the apartment all day. When Mom got home though we hit the town!!

There is this AMAZING baby/kids store in downtown Alameda called Pipen Hill and we went shopping there and both the kids got some GREAT outfits. They are summery and cool. No pictures of that now though, that is for the fashion show tomorrow!

Then we went to a resturant called Tomitiallo. With the recent salmonella thing with the tomatoes I was worried, but they had sun dried tomatoes in stock and it was great. Speaking of....*looks for leftover pizza* Here are some pictures from the resturant. The baby has on a flower head band from Pipen Hill. She got MANY compliments on it!

The thing in the bowl was this berry crisp...YUM!

Next we drove to Oakland and went to whole foods Grocery store...WOW!! Largest one I have ever seen and the things there were all so delicious! I wanted to go there for fresh frozen baby food, and we got that, but I walked out with so much MORE wonderful stuff! Look!!

Then this is what I bought...

Yes! That is a bottle of blush from Francis Ford Coppola's Vineyard in Sonoma. It's named after his daughter Sofia who just directed Marie Anntoinette. Please forgive my spelling...

So! All in all it was a good day and I am posting this a day late, I will get the post from today up in a little while! Today was a hard day, but it was ok. I will talk to you all later!

Fun, Wine and an Evening Out

2008-06-09T23:45:00.000-04:00

A picture says a 1,000 words...
Mom came home this evening and without even asking where to go we headed out. We went to a great Grocery store here called Nobb Hill. AWESOME! They had a TON of great things! I was in heaven. We went there looking for Organic frozen baby food and it was the ONLY thing they didn't have. Gonna have to find the Whole Foods in Oakland. I got some Organic milk that was SO organic that it had butter fat in the lid. I took that all out and now I have the best butter and milk EVER! It wasn't cheap, but cheaper then GAS that is $4.45 as of today here and that was the cheapest place around here. I also got the wine you see above. I feel so...expensive it was the most expensive Blush on the shelf at $5! WOW!! I know right?!

After Nobb Hill we went to this AMAZING Indian place called Indian Palace. I think the baby ate more then me and then proceeded to fart the rest of the night. It was awesome! She ate soup, rice, curry, cucumber, bread....what didn't she eat would be better! She is napping now.

Then we came home, I played on the computer for a bit, cracked open the wine and here we are! It was a great night! I am going to start reading that book from earlier today and then knit some and enjoy my wine. It's a great night.

Oh! I forgot to put this in! I got home and I had an email from the lady who is going to tattoo me. We are working off the details but it is going to be AMAZING! I can't WAIT to get tattooed by her, she is awesome. I will get pictures, promise!

Just to show you that I am not some high class yuppie wine drinker...
I bought it based on the label...I love my choice in wine!

The Day Alone

2008-06-09T16:42:00.001-04:00

My mom had to go back to work today, so we had the day alone. We all woke up early, but I think that as the days go on and we get used to mom moving around in the morning everyone will sleep later and later.

We cleaned up the house, I did the dishes, and then took a shower and we all got dressed. We went to Borders and bought a few bedtime stories, cause we left them all at home. I got a book to, it was on sale for $5. It's this guy with a funny view on why there is no God. I don't know, I will see what it's like. I read the first few pages, when the baby wasn't grabbing them, and it seemed more like it was written to be funny then serious.

Then we went to Applebee's for Lunch. It was good, I had this AWESOME salad and my son ate all his food and got this awesome chocolate mousse thing. It had to much chocolate for me but it looked good. I got a cheesecake thing, it was ok. We walked around for a bit and found the Old Navy and my son got some flipflops they have them on sale 2 for $5!!! The baby got a tshirt. Girl baby clothes are so much fun! My son got socks to, he needed those!

Then came the beach!
It was fun. We walked, we sat, we played and then we took pictures! (The baby ate some sand)

First whole day in Cali!

2008-06-08T20:38:00.001-04:00

California is good!!
Spent the morning at the pool and it was great! I wore sunscreen today too! I already got a bad burn form back home. Now I have baby proof SPF 50! WOOT!! No more burning for me!!

Also, I got both the kids a new car seat. The baby was the only one that really needed it, but the one for my son was on sale, $10, so I grabbed it. He loves it cause it has cup holders. So then we spent the day by the pool and then went to eat sushi and now everyone is taking a nap, not me but you get the point. I am sitting here listening to Justin Timberlake, take your bad comments elsewhere!

I am going to get a tattoo done on Friday and I am going to see the Lipizzaner Stallions perform on Sunday. My son is going to an arena football game on Saturday with my mom. He is going to have so much fun! My mom is the best for getting tickets to the horse show. It's going to be amazing!!

California is such a happy place when you let it be!!

Why the name?

2008-06-08T17:36:00.000-04:00

Why have I decided to name my blog the way that I did? Cause that is what I am doing. I have been put in a position that for the 3rd time in my life, second time for this reason, I have to start my life all over again. This time it's not from scratch so I can at least be thankful for that!
1st time: Family left Florida in a matter of 3 hours cause of an abusive relationship (I was 12)
2nd time: Relationship went bad but ended and has been "OK" to deal with

That would bring me to where we are today. I have had another relationship blow up in my face in a firey mess. The problem with this one, I made the mistake of WANTING to marry the poor guy. A number of reasons were given and some MAJOR things happened and it's over with NO chance of ever coming back. It's ok...really! Ok fine, don't believe me.

For now I am getting my mind clear. I forgive him and at this point I don't think he cares either way, but again at this point I don't care anymore. I was given many warnings that something of this calibur was going to happen, but do I listen? HELL NO! My dumb self likes to think that I can bring out the best in people. What a joke!

Now I sit in Cali and what better place to clear your mind?! I am MAYBE 1,000 feet from a beach. I am 3 blocks from Sushi and there is a pool down stairs. So, I get to hide out here form my problems for a bit and then I have to face them head on again. By then I will be more settled in the situation and it will all flow a little better.

I need a date...
(I am joking)